Chapter

 

Twenty-Seven

 

STRONG DELUSION

TO BELIEVE A LIE

                There is new light shed forth in the darkness of demonic/multiple personality disorder.  The personal problems that come in post-traumatic life are the result of believing the lies told in the spirit of the individual:

 

                The spirit of man is the candle of the LORD, searching all the inward parts of the belly.                        Prov:20:27

 

                We know that all lies are from the father of lies (Jn:8:44: Ye are of your father the devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar, and the father of it). Our personal lies become compounded by the intrusion of his forces in the mind of the individual.  The counseling that overturns the lies is called  TheoPhostic counseling.

 

                The lies are listed in two areas: TYPES and CATAGORIES.  A TYPE has to do with “operation” or “function”.  The CATAGORY has to do with the “nature” or “character” of the lie.  There are seven (7) TYPES and eight (8) CATAGORIES

 

TYPES

 

1> Metamorphic Lies.  This is the lie that changes from the truth of a memory past and applies itself to a present situation with feelings and emotions that are not true to the present.  In the past memory in the true event the person’s  will was violated by some overt act.  In the present situation the Metamorphic lie out of past trauma memory tells the person they are powerless.

 

                These people will have a tower of overwhelming emotion that covers fear, terror, helplessness, and powerlessness.  The allowance of the lies leads to panic attacks in the present situation.  the panic attack syndrome is deleted when the root-trauma-memory is resurrected out of memory and the triggers removed.

 

2> Cluster Lies.   As in a cluster of grapes: they are all grapes, all in one bunch, yet separate individual grapes.  Each one has to be dealt with till the cluster is picked clean and the branch is bare.  Cluster lies are evidence when, after Jesus has spoken truth to a lie and given healing, the personal feeling and pain in memory do not drop to zero on a scale of ten to zero.

 

3> Cloned Lies.  This lie reproduces itself in similar situations over the life of the individual relative to the root or original real trauma memory.  This lie is evidenced when in counseling the memory shifts from one memory to another in the same emotion.  To resolve this lie you must discover and resolve the root trauma.  In so doing all subsequent historical clones are removed.

                This arena of lies is associated with depression caused by chemical imbalance.  With healing of the mind comes subsequent healing in balance of the body (unless there is real physical imbalance otherwise).

4> Memory Linked Lies.  Is like a Cluster lie but is a cluster of trauma memories using the same lie.  Instead of a cluster of different lies it is a cluster of memories.  This lie is indicated by the counselee when they report an interference or interface with other trauma memory.  To resolve this lie you have to move from memory to memory till the lie is removed from all memories.

 

5> Guardian Lies.  These are strategic lies placed between the trauma memory and current memory to block revealing the truth of the original incident to hid the lie.  Manifest in the counselee by denial, refusal of TheoPhostic process, not accepting God’s truth, minimizing the trauma, or the emotion or justifying the emotion.  Must be confessed as self-attempts at healing and acknowledged as sin before healing can come.

6> Splinter Lies.  A small splinter left behind from the original trauma memory some how remains after healing and re-surfaces later with less intensity -- but the same pain.  It is healed in the same manner as the original trauma memory.

 

7> Osmotic Lies.  This lie is believed as truth while watching the action and behavior of others.  The person believing the lie becomes very critical, harsh, and rigid.  The believer is unwavering in this learned response to the given situation.

 

CATAGORIES

 

                The elements that describe these categories are fear, abandonment, shame, taintedness, hopelessness, invalidation, powerlessness, and confusion.

1> Fear.  This lie is Phobotic and is in line with the Scripture of “fear where no fear was” (Ps:53:5).  Primarily Metamorphic in type the lie originated in a situation of true perceived danger.  The phobia is relived in current situations which contain no real element of necessary fear.

 

2> Abandonment.  If the believer of the lie ever felt deserted or abandoned the lie is perpetuated in loneliness, rejection, God forsaken, with feelings of betrayal and a lack of trust in anyone.

 

3> Shame.  The lie of Shame is believed when guilt is accepted.  This lie can be identified by expressions of stupidity and ignorance.  The believer will believe they deserve it because they know better and did nothing to stop it and even returned for more.  Repeatedly confessing their sin does not relieve the guilt of the lie of shame.

 

4> Tainted.  This lie differs from Shame in that shame is from self-condemnation, whereas being tainted comes from having something wrong done to me.  The believer then feels dirty and perverted, and believes they are broken merchandise beyond love and repair.

5>  Confusion.  Created in very young children who cannot discern between their right or left hand.  They are confused by a wound perpetuated on them by a “big person” who should have known better.  The adult believer of the infantile lie in current situations becomes engulfed in confusion and losses a basic sense of direction or understanding.  It is easy for demons to infiltrate the confusion and take control of the lie.  The counselor must take control of the demonic force (if present) before healing can be manifest.

 

6>  Hopelessness.  The believer of this lie lives in a state of give-up-it is.  They believe in the current situation that they are without hope -- no way out.  At the end of the rope they fall into lethargy, despair, and depression which can carry them to the edge of suicide, and often over the edge.

 

7>  Invalidation.  All children need validation from an adult, primary parent or care-giver.  Lack of proper validation leads to the lie and false conclusion about oneself.  This creates lack of self esteem and self worth, and thwarts any personal motive or ability.

 

8>  Powerlessness.  This lie is developed out of forced behavior with the person being unable to stop the act.  This lie then develops into a Cluster and is evident in the general attitude of “I can’t”.

 

                The eight lies can be remembered by the acrostic F.A.S.T.C.H.I.P. -- the first letter of each CATAGORY.

 

 

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ALTERS BEGINNING 5/13/97

DR. 1. OFFICE

 

DR1 to client: can you see inside, can you see the ALTERS?  We need to reach the system leader and teach to evangelize - Col. 2:7 -   Gave copies of COLOR PROGRAMMING.   Need to teach warfare and evangelism.

                1% of population has MPD.  The key word for progress is daily FUNCTION. 

DR1: addresses system leader to find more information.  Eph. 4:16 ; Acts 20:28-31.  Ask to talk to who is in charge

Client: what I hear is NO, NO, NO

DR1: I’m Pastoral counselor , need to talk to help, ask you to be willing

Client: eyes closed then opened, shake head NO - doesn’t want to

DR1:  What is your reason for not wanting to talk today

ALTER: None of your business

DR1: Yes it is, I’m a brother in Christ, want to help (pray against demons if present).   (to alter) Come to the fore and talk

Client: (eyes closed - hard time)

ALTER: its work

DR1: talk

ALTER: may be

DR1: have we talked before?

ALTER: no, but I’ve heard you

DR1: are you in charge

ALTER: don’t know how much to tell

DR1: Know Jesus as Savior?

ALTER: yes, long time ago

DR1: do you have an evil spirit guide

ALTER: ANGER

DR1: demon

ALTER: YES

DR1: pray? aloud

ALTER: yes

DR1: I pray for you - bind anger, he leave?

ALTER: YES

DR1: here to help, friend.  What is your age and name

ALTER: 45 - JIM

DR1: Not want to offend, need information to help, want best, need to know - why eyes closed?

JIM: (client) comfortable

DR1: you or (client)

JIM: God is

DR1: OK - see angel soldier?

JIM: see one

DR1: (Pray) - God give - send JIM angel, see angel?

JIM: yes

DR1: well, good

JIM: (client) not handle

DR1: how many ALTERS/

JIM: ----------------------------- 120 ------

 

DR1: all as child?

JIM: yes, age 2

DR1: any come in adulthood?

JIM: no

DR1: any SATANIC RITUAL ABUSE?

JIM: WITCH

DR1: touch (Client)

JIM: TOOK BABY

DR1: explain

JIM: not now

DR1: (client)’s personality split came at 2 - when did it stop

JIM: yes, age 20

DR1: you early split

JIM: yes

DR1: complicated? - demons?

JIM: yes

DR1: are you free? love Jesus?

JIM: yes - don’t know love - saved - not done lot with Jesus

DR1: consider telling alters about Jesus?

JIM: yes

DR1: any problems or needs?

JIM: some taken-- cripple crazy - just there

DR1: integrate some - upset - bad?

JIM: been long time - mess with - things change

DR1: yes, one was violent, wanted to ..

JIM: JAMIE

DR1: big need

JIM: ANGER

DR1: big problem

JIM: lot  angry

DR1: trust with me into who told not to tell?

JIM: God, (client) wants to know

DR1: ask God for info, test spirit - no demon tell Jim? if allowed share some info on anger?

JIM: no, can’t

DR1: how know  -  God tell NO?

JIM: can’t - yes

DR1: error hidden - has power - error to light - loose power - hidden on house top - trust me with info - in dark no healing - anger through forgive - is witch a relative?

JIM: yes ----    no

DR1: how access

JIM: take to WITCH

DR1: who , why?

JIM: WART - FOOT

DR1: other reasons

JIM: BABY

DR1: age 2 or adult

JIM: no - age 6 - wart

DR1: baby in womb?

JIM: age 12, yes

DR1: who put there?

(client back )

DR2 to DR1: one alter said (person # 2)

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DR1: some type of ceremony

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3:00 PM

DR1: would JIM like to talk some more - was that uncomfortable?

Client: feel panicy - cut xanax

DR1: JIM, talk more?

JIM: feel stupid

DR1: he’s talking

Client: don’t feel he say anything

DR1: you can feel, can I talk to JIM

JIM: she not want talk

DR1: (client) tell

JIM: she control

DR1: why she not want

JIM: she believe dumb

DR1: you intelligent - work together- OK? ask? did (client) have ABORTION AT AGE 12?

JIM: ---------------- YES --------------------

DR1: tough secret

JIM: no

DR1: SRA?

JIM: WITCH DOCTOR, MALE, HE DID

DR1: any programming, anger

JIM: -(?)-------- yes

DR1: (client) know truth?

JIM: no

DR1: hid?

JIM: yes

DR1: who strong - work with-in?

JIM: MARY

DR1: can I talk to Mary?

MARY: age 41

DR1: Jesus love?

MARY: yes

DR1: talk

MARY: yes

DR1: work with JIM and me? -work alters together?

MARY: if JIM help

DR1: I believe he will

MARY: yes

DR1: JIM, will you help?

JIM: what you want?

DR1: work with alters, lead to Jesus one on one - forgive? important, need peace, all have Jesus and forgive. will you work and help?

JIM: yes

DR1: MARY

MARY: yes

DR1: I receive Jesus 20 years ago, you know Jesus?

MARY: yes, most do

DR1: why anger?

MARY: what THEY did

DR1: share?

MARY: hurt when little

DR1: when 2 - who - tell?

MARY: no

DR1; why secret

MARY: JIM say he get angry

DR1: JIM

JIM: here

DR1: help understand - know more

JIM: tell more?

DR1: are you under orders?  Jesus - truth set free - truth - you protect (client) from pain?

JIM: it would be

DR1: she already went through it

JIM: yes

DR1: (client) deal with, tell your story

JIM: not going to

DR1: like (client) , love

JIM: yes, yes

DR1: protect - is your job

JIM: yes -------yes

DR1: not right not to protect

JIM: yes

DR1: angel there

JIM: yes

DR1: ask God to use angel - you talk with angel about what to tell (pray)

DR1: JIM?

(client back)

DR1: JIM - talk with angel?

(client): yes. feel build up - explode. afraid of what say or not say - feel they don’t know, not make sense

DR1: know - you will deny or hurt.  I think you’re controlling part of what they say

(client): I want to know

DR1: it’s all  you - JIM says (client) won’t to talk

(client): don’t think they know anything

Dr1: let’s allow his story

3:17 PM

DR1: I feel confusion about what you want

(client) I confused

DR1; (pray, help)

DR1: heart calm down? (client) with me? who I talk to?

ALTER: make angry, upset

DR1: what’s your name?

ALTER: SHELLA

DR1: have we met?

SHELLA: no

DR1: Jesus savior

SHELLA: no, not need

DR1: you do need

SHELLA: doing fine without

DR1: you angry?

SHELLA: yes

DR1:

SHELLA: don’t like what going on, what you or they do

DR1: I help, invite Christ in - (gave gospel)

SHELLA: why?

DR1: need peace - understanding, I need your help

SHELLA: what do

DR1: help other parts, you important

SHELLA: no peace here

DR1: prince of peace come in.  JIM, MARY, who in charge?

SHELLA: JIM

DR1: he good, let Jesus in? pray with me, please

SHELLA: what he do for me?

DR1: give peace, strength

SHELLA: lot of sadness

DR1: give life, pray with “forgive sin - come in -take sin, save me - thank you” -  have demons or spirit guide?

SHELLA: DEMON - ANGRY

DR1: he leave (pray) - did he leave? still there, SHELLA? - is he still there

SHELLA: another one came

DR1: (pray) - all spirits bound - removed up and out -  gone?

SHELLA: yes

DR1: doing better?

SHELLA: yes

DR1: age

SHELLA: 19

DR1: how where you created, do you know?

SHELLA: no

DR1: treat bad - pray forgive

SHELLA: not tell who

DR1: not have to - pray to forgive - possible?

SHELLA: no - don’t want to

DR1 think about later, Matt. 18:34-35 - know any one else? - who do I have?

ALTER: JOLIE, GIRL, AGE 7

DR1: know Jesus?

JOLIE: Jesus good

DR1: ask Jesus in?

JOLIE: not sure

DR1: can you ask?

JOLIE: OK

DR1: (pray together)

JOLIE: what saved from?

DR1: hell, sin - give happiness

JOLIE: what happy?

DR1: tell who hurt

JOLIE: (identity of THIRD PERSON) in closet

DR1: can forgive - pray to God?

JOLIE: who’s God?

DR1: Jesus - pray with me, forgive (third person) - God take care of

JOLIE: will He really?

DR1: vengeance is mine saith the Lord - Pray - “turn person over - forgive - take pain” - feel better?

(client got up and walked to window and stood for awhile

DR1: Is  (client) with us?

ALTER: it is JANE.  They hurt us and all you want to do is forgive and let them get away with it - you not know what they did - not deserve to be forgiven

DR1: yes - but God commands to forgive for our sake - Jesus give peace - how old are you?

JANE: 26

DR1: need your help - talk - know Jesus? - talk about

JANE: no

DR1: hate him - why - he love you

JANE: yes ----------------- no

DR1: Jesus loves you - come to table and talk

JANE: they BURNED US

DR1: I’m sorry

DR2: (told DR1 about other alter and cigarette burn)

DR1: talk about Jesus and healing - want to stay or come to table -

CLIENT BACK - sit down

3:40 PM

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5/14/97 - 8:15 PM begin with prayer

Client prayed - cry - read first para of prayer - client seemed spaced out

Client: no peace  in the world

DR2: says who - want to talk

ALTER: no - not do any good - reading stupid prayer

DR2: who are you?

ALTER: why tell?

DR2: I ask

ALTER: polite to tell?

DR2: yes

ALTER: BABS, AGE 35

DR2: why were you born, created?

BABS: I hold pain

DR2: how old (client) when you born?

BABS: 4

DR2: can you tell what cause pain?

BABS: (client’s - identity of 4th person) BURN HAND  ON STOVE

DR2: do you know why? accident?

BABS: no

DR2: can you tell me about it?

BABS: happen on stove

CLIENT: (shake head - hands on head) where is God - not in this - not part of these lies - don’t want to hear any more - every one be quiet - I’m sick

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8:30 PM - read paras 2 through 10

Client sick - just hanging on

DR2: pray for healing and peace - I call for person that is sick to talk about sickness

ALTER: why want to talk?

DR2; Jesus bring healing

ALTER: stomach hurts

DR2: like it to go away?

ALTER: yes

DR2: your name

ALTER: PATTY, AGE 13 - always sick

DR2: you know Jesus?

PATTY: make stop - not sick?

DR2: Jesus can

PATTY: tell Him to make stop

DR2: you can ask Him, I help

PATTY: head gets messed up - stomach hurt- used to through-up when little

DR2: lets talk to Jesus - OK?

PATTY: OK

DR2: I’ll pray - you follow me verbally, _OK?

PATTY: all right

DR2: “Dear Jesus I come to you confessing my weakness, my sickness, and my sin - forgive me where I need to be.  I take you now as my Lord and Savior - by the stripes on you back I claim healing  - please help me to exercise my faith in your blood - in your name, Amen.”

DR2: how feel now?

PATTY: not sure - still hurt some

DR2: just watch what Jesus does - can you tell me what thing made you sick or rather not?

PATTY: my head hurts now

DR2: OK - not talk about that - do you know others?

PATTY: nobody happy here - head really hurts

DR2: somebody hurt it?

PATTY: banged on bed

DR2: is it sore?

PATTY: no - hurt inside

DR2: remember we ask Jesus to heal

PATTY: everything?

DR2: in His time - you can help

PATTY: how

DR2; know other persons?

PATTY: yes

DR2: we need you to tell them about Jesus and to help (client)

PATTY: what tell

DR2: He’s the Savior and healer - He will forgive - He wants (client) whole

PATTY: (client) want to die

DR2: I know

PATTY: she not feel well

DR2: you need to help within with others to cooperate in (client) - give peace in Jesus - know JIM?

PATTY: yes

DR2: JIM going to help

PATTY: not doing now

DR2: because  I am - he just started - he’ll need you to help

PATTY: have to go now

DR2: OK - thank you for your help

PATTY: I’ll help - by

DR2: by

8:55 PM

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client: feels like I’m crying for something I don’t know what I’m crying for - a loss

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Client in denial - says open door for Satan’s lies not true - going insane

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feel - see - shaking - screaming - “not true”

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SUNDAY, 5/18/97 - 12:30 PM

Client:  talk - read books

DR2: who is there, want to talk

ALTER: she not want - not believe - try get me not to  - she wrong

DR2: about what

ALTER: us

DR2: what’s your name and age

ALTER: JESS, GIRL, AGE 25

DR2: how old (client) when you came

JESS: 6

DR2: know why

JESS: (client) say I don’t know

DR2: do you

JESS: if do - don’t tell - you wonder

DR2: right - can you tell me why

JESS: can but won’t

DR2: so why are you out

JESS: (client) was aggravating me so much - not believe - she want me shut up - she yelling at me - tell me if I want to say - tell

DR2: good idea - we need help - she need to know

JESS: why - we take to keep from (?) why now

DR2: need healing - wholeness - unity

JESS: I don’t need the glasses

DR2: what happened at age 6

JESS: go outside - forget - be happy - know what I like to be happy

DR2: ?

DR2: difficult

JESS: wish she go away

DR2: no

JESS: she think be better you no worry

DR2: be better if whole

JESS: what if never -  - you never

DR2: believe God’s promises

JESS: better then nothing

DR2: not look for any one else

JESS: you be happy

DR2: not know

JESS: what want us to do - preach

DR2: spiritual warfare - aware of demons

JESS: what aware

DR2: know they are there

JESS: with us  - yes - cause trouble - get rid of them

DR2: you can help

JESS: I can

DR2: yes

JESS: how

DR2: blood & Jesus name

JESS: that make them go away

DR2: from believer - yes - you believe in Jesus?

JESS: don’t know do or not - He supposed to do good - but does He?

DR2: John 3:16

JESS: (look eye to eye) what do with us

DR2: as (client) - live forever

JESS: like your tie - little babies in it

DR2: so what - you profess Christ?

JESS: may be I did

DR2: accept cross - blood - salvation?

JESS: no one know why go there - what you want me to do?

DR2: pray with me - verbally

JESS: OK

Pray: I confess Christ, His burial and resurrection for me and my sin.  I accept Him as my Savior, and as I can make Him Lord

JESS: what Lord of?

DR2: what you do

JESS: don’t do lot - should don’t tell - junk in here - get her clean

DR2; a help - back to prayer - OK? - Jesus, I claim your blood on all demons - and my authority as a believer - help me to victory - help me to be a witness to the others for (client) sake. give us the Holy Spirit for power, Amen.

DR2: believe saved - Acts 1:8 - ask you JESS - to talk to others and resist the demons - claim authority over

JESS: that be nice - they disturbing - so many here - so much chaos

DR2: know how many?

JESS: no - always around

DR2: can tell me anything now?

JESS: she not want to hear it

DR2: we need truth - we’re asking God bring to light

JESS: He brought us to light we always been here DR1 wrong - not know everything - God not tell us be quiet - he say God show not in dark - he talk to us too

DR2: true

JESS: He in charge of everything - DR1 has lot to learn

DR2: me too

JESS: be nice to feel besides sad - (client) getting scared

DR2: let her come back

client: (eyes closed - open)

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Thur - 5/22/97 - 7:15 PM

DR2: talk with me - (client) SCREAMING?

ALTER: I’m tired - she week - too hard to talk

DR2: expect so

ALTER: she wants energy - feel good - not depressed - she can’t

DR2: why not

ALTER: the things that happened - hold on take - won’t let go

DR2: can you help

ALTER: JIM doing what you say - talk about Jesus and peace

DR2: good

ALTER: think it help (client)?

DR2: yes, do you know Jesus

ALTER: yes

DR2: what’s your name and age

ALTER:  JESSICA, 16  - (client) like that name DR2: SCREAMING still there?

JESSICA: yes - she SCREAMING - with her daddy (eyes open)

DR2: how hold (client)

JESSICA: 4 - hurts - SCREAM

DR2: where are they

JESSICA: in the yard

DR2: what doing

(Client back) 7:22 PM

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DR2: what you see - remember

Client: didn’t want to hear what she had to say about (first person) I didn’t wan to hear it

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7:24 PM

DR2: who there - JESSICA?

Client: I feel something but not know what I’m feeling - like its there but not

DR2: (Pray for love of Christ, peace and comfort of H.S. for God to reveal - rebuke any demon spirits present)

Client: it’s like I can almost reach out and touch it (memory) but can’t get close enough - see little girl SCREAMING AND RUNNING - feel like I’m going to jump up and run away SCREAMING

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SATURDAY, 5/24/97 9:50 PM

Client’s Daughter Present - had been talking about sin, demons, claiming the ground, etc.

Client went in to altered state

DR2: want to talk?

Client: (bowed head, turns away and crawled moves to window behind chair - no sound at all)

DR2: (prays) and ask will you talk with me please - its OK - do you know who I am?

Client: (covers ears, head with hands, rubs hair - more)

DR2: may I ask your name?

Client: (rubs hair)

DR2;  (?)

ALTER: go away - don’t want to talk - don’t like subject

DR2: want to change subject?

ALTER: don’t like - yes

DR2: Pray and go to bed, that OK?

ALTER: (rub hair)

DR2: Pray

ALTER: (irritated - head up and down )

DR2: call for (client) to the forefront - ALTER to memory

Client back

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June 14, 1997

Client reading book Released From Bondage by Anderson

Client: I am feeling so angry

DR2: who

Client: (rocking legs)

DR2: who’s feeling so angry?  You are commended to the love of Christ and the comfort and peace of the Holy Ghost.  I rebuke any demon spirits present.  The love of Jesus is here and the Holy Spirit gives peace - Jesus calm the storm

Client: (eyes open - book down)

DR2: talk - who’s there? - freedom in Christ - speak what troubling you so you can be free - (Pray for freedom and truth to be told)

You not like what we read and talk about - why do you have to say?  Need you to help (client) with her problem which is probably yours too.

Client: (eyes closed)

DR2: you talk or hold (client) captive?

Client: (eyes open - back)  - I don’t want to do this  - don’t want this to happen - why come out if nothing to say - what’s the point

 

6/20/97 - reading Anderson’s Released From Bondage, p.65 - 7:30 AM

ALTER took over -

DR2: (rebuked any demons present) Do you have inf. to share about what we read?  Need to share in love and light of Jesus - dispel darkness - bring hidden to light in light of Jesus - need freedom in the truth of what happened - (rebuked demons again) - commend to the comfort and peace of Holy Spirit to alters - call for the God given personality of (client)

DR2: what went on?

Client: someone said shut up - we don’t get what we want - to heavy to talk (eyes open - catatonic)

DR2: (prayed put on armour)

Client: (voice raspy - when got to SWORD - went out - other control - I asked for her hand - client said “I can’t give” - began to wisper “I’m going to die” - went limp (pray again) - client back weak - “I still feel their here - they say you can’t have me” - kept spacing out - had to keep calling back - failed response - fear in eyes - client got up and went to bed - hugging pillow

DR2: (touch pillow)

Client: (jerk in anger)

DR2: address system - call for JIM

ALTER: why?

DR2: talk about what going on

ALTER: he won’t tell - nobody tell you

DR2: who are you

ALTER: want to be left alone

DR2: you bothered (Client) and me

ALTER: don’t want to tell

DR2: OK - don’t - why you come out?

ALTER: don’t feel well - head hurt

DR2: why

ALTER: stomach and head hurt

DR2: why - somebody hurt you

ALTER: ALL HURT - heart

DR2: know Jesus?

ALTER: I think I die  - if I die (client) doe too - head hurt

DR2: know Jesus?

ALTER: slipping away - hands - breath - weak

DR2: (Pray for healing)

ALTER: Jesus lies

DR2: devil lies - pray for healing - relieve pain

6?20 - 8:20 AM CON.

DR2: will talk more

ALTER: why

DR2: give inf. about (client) - who do we have - talk with me

ALTER: ( shake head no)

DR2: pray - call for personality of (client)

Client: I really don’t like this - what’s the point?

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TUE - JUN 24 - doing study p. 13 - Client  felt odd - cringe feeling - tore page out of note book - on floor - fearful - look on face and eyes - DR2 prayed

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p13 - anger again - tore page - scribbled with pin - sick - feel neasua - feel sick - banging head - DR2 prayed for peace and understanding

DR2: some one want to talk (client’s eyes closed - act alter state)

DR2: do you have something to say?  do you know who I am? - trust me - talk to me (Client) needs your help

ALTER: (hands on head)

DR2: please talk with me

ALTER: (sit up straight - took glasses off)

DR2: who’s there - what’s your name?

ALTER: (looking out window - hands at mouth - client back)

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6/26/97 - 9:30Pm

while talking (Client) felt rebellious presence - in Prayer - alter state

DR2: pray - rebuke spirit of rebellion - commend to love of Jesus - comfort of Holy Spirit

Client: back - words in mind but wouldn’t come out - now I feel sick and weak

DR2: Acts 1:8 and II Tim. 1:7 - we claim the power

Client: not in agreement

DR2: is there a need for someone to speak - speak truth - lies renounced

ALTER: shake head no

DR2: you come forward you need

ALTER: why - go away - leave us alone - GO TO HELL  we not talk

DR2: who me?

ALTER: none of us - don’ feel well

DR2: who is us?

ALTER: don’t feel well - weak - dying

DR2: Romans - law of liberty - freedom  - life

ALTER: no - dying

DR2: not until God says so - Jesus - come to give life abundant

ALTER: there is no peace - can’t find

DR2: pray - healing in Jesus and Holy Spirit

ALTER: need water

DR2: get some - OK? - (got water) -OK can you take the water? (took water)

ALTER: NO

DR2: sit over here

ALTER: can’t move

DR2: why

ALTER: don’t know  - please give us water

DR2: I can - I have

ALTER: cry for water - can I have more

DR2: pray - free in Jesus - released by demons -

(took water)

DR2: why crying - tell me - who is with you - you said us - your are released and free to talk

ALTER: want more water

DR2: OK - give me he cup - I be back

DR2: here’s water

ALTER: (took)

DR2; why are you thirsty - do you know

ALTER: (sipping water slowly)

DR2; you been without water a long time?

ALTER: don’t want to be in the dirt

DR2: where is the dirt? Jesus and Holy Spirit here - heal - peace

ALTER: covered up in dirt

DR2: pray - Jesus get out of dirt - wash in blood - clean white clothes

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FRI - 6/27 - 7:50 PM

DR2: pray - address system  - call for (client)

Client: head back eye closed - then head up - eyes open - blinking

DR2: call for JIM ( no response)

Client: nothing - thot - but not (pause)

DR2: call for JIM

Client: (head back - eyes closed - head up eyes open - NO) - feel sick thirsty (eyes blinking rapidly - startled by VCR coming on - eyes shut)

DR2: some one come to talk

8:05 PM

Client:(head rolling)

DR2: light of Jesus give you light to speak (dropped remote - startled client back)

Client: was some where but didn’t know where

DR2: describe

Client: no (eyes closed) - head hurts

DR2: why head hurt

ALTER: hit you

DR2: some one hit you

ALTER: yes

DR2: how old when hit

ALTER: its dark

DR2: would like some light - pray - Jesus give light to see ( hands on eyes - hands to ears)

ALTER: WATER

DR2: (got water - client crying - I bring water)  Jesus is the water - He quench thirst - take it away

ALTER: (took water)

DR2: your name?

ALTER: dying ( like fainting)

DR2: (I touched - she jerked - eyes open - fear) OK - memory past - in present - need you to talk

(help - sit up straight - eyes open - closed)

8:20 PM

DR2: Jesus - I ask for clarity, freedom, and light - walk in light of the truth

ALTER: I see the light - bright

DR2: go to light - go to Jesus - leave darkness behind -  - - are you with Jesus? - what do you see?

ALTER: trying to come - weak - tired

DR2; pray for angels to help - did angels come

ALTER: ( said something - didn’t get)

DR2: what you try to say (startled - eyes open)

ALTER: what happening

DR2; what your name?

ALTER: we don’t feel like talking - to tired to talk

DR2: know why tired?

ALTER: we’re dying

DR2: lie of the devil

ALTER: you don’t understand

DR2: explain

ALTER: the dirt - can’t breath - we’re dying

DR2: this is memory - in past

ALTER: dying

DR2: NO- pray - free in love of Christ

ALTER: evil is everywhere - all around

DR2: pray - rebuke - evil spirits - free in blood of Jesus and Holy Spirit

ALTER: (cringe - shake - eyes open and closed - jerk again)

DR2: who - name - age

ALTER: doesn’t matter who I am not worth anything

DR2; lie

ALTER: just a nobody - to be hurt - jous somebody to be hurt

DR2; Jesus - life abundant - Jesus give life for sheep

ALTER; (JERK - YELL - BACK)

DR2: evil presence?

Client: yes - there - like I was about to see it

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WED - July 2, 97 - 9:25 AM

After doing study - reading passages on healing Client into catatonic state of starring -

DR2: prayed

DR2: I ask you to come talk - what has you upset - what memory did we bring up?

ALTER: I just evil and dark

DR2; who is

ALTER: every where evil and dark

DR2; where are you

ALTER: (shiver)

DR2; pray for light to reveal darkness - still in darkness?

ALTER: I see light

DR2: where

ALTER: tunnel

DR2: what tunnel

ALTER: way out

DR2: way out of where

ALTER: DARK CAVE

DR2: where’s the cave

ALTER: don’t know

DR2: why you there - who took you there

ALTER: I’m dying - (lips moving)

DR2; Jesus way, truth, life - still alive - only memory - call you to light and life of Jesus - He brings light and life to spirit and soul to see memory and live - Jesus is here - His light give life

ALTER: baby in the dirt - get baby out of dirt

DR2: funeral? - cemetery? where - what see?

ALTER: in the cave (jerk back)

DR2; pray - rebuke demons, commend to love of Christ and comfort and peace - what happened? - what see

ALTER: closed the box - on top of me

DR2; who did

ALTER; don’t know - I’m gona die in the box

DR2; only memory - some one must have got you out

ALTER: I’m in the box - she’s going to go to sleep in the box

DR2; who - she - who is in the box

ALTER; I’m gonna sleep in the box

DR2; pray Jesus take out of box - surround area - see where you are who  - what do you see?

ALTER: (persons # 3 & 5) - and others

DR2: why they put in box?

ALTER: (nod) no - tired

DR2: your name - age

ALTER; PEGGY SUE -  I’m cold

DR2; tell age

PEGGY SUE: so tired

DR2: because of box?

PEGGY SUE: couldn’t breath in box

DR2; see Jesus

PEGGY SUE: yes

DR2: go to Jesus

PEGGY SUE: he’s up high

DR2: I ask Jesus to come to you - Jesus - please come down to PEGGY SUE  - - He come?

PEGGY SUE: mmmmm

DR2: take Jesus hand

PEGGY SUE; mmmmmmmmm

DR2: pray - Jesus take - save - heal - wash memory in blood

DR2: PEGGY SUE? - PEGGY SUE? - PEGGY SUE? - are you there - are you PEGGY SUE?

ALTER: asleep - let me alone - want to be asleep - never wake up

DR2; pray - power of Jesus Christ for PEGGY SUE - wake from sleep - be awake in Jesus name , amen.

ALTER; (eyes open)

DR2; hello, are you PEGGY SUE?

ALTER: (eyes blinking)

DR2: talk some more?

ALTER: hate them, hate them, hate them

DR2; I understand

ALTER: no you don’t - you can’t - doesn’t hurt you

DR2: you want the hurt to go away?

ALTER: not go away

DR2: Jesus can take it away - do you want Him to ?

ALTER: NO

DR2: why not?

ALTER: I just want to hurt

DR2: be better if healed

ALTER: (?)

DR2: pray for healing by Jesus for PEGGY SUE

ALTER: (interrupt) I’m not PEGGY SUE

DR2: not ? - who then?

ALTER: no reason to tell ------JOAN

DR2: how old

JOAN: you can have (client) back now

Client back

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7/3/97 - 9:05 AM - reading - talking forgiveness - mentioned person # 3 & 5 - Client went out

DR2: who has come forward - JOAN or PEGGY SUE?  come talk please - need inf. to help (client)

ALTER: no - she can’t forgive - don’t know what happen we won’t let forget - they don’t deserve forgiveness - she can’t - they almost killed her - almost died - they horrible

DR2: who are you - JOAN? - no peace to wicked - Jesus came to ive peace - come all that labor and rest - no rest till you come

ALTER: they have rest - evil - they free - they go - the rest peace - we’re in pieces

DR2: Jesus - give life abundant

ALTER: don’t see any way (client) has sanity to live

DR2: she needs your life

ALTER: they rotten

DR2: you and (client) need to forgive

ALTER: no - I won’t

DR2: what good that do - just miserable

ALTER: they made us this way - if I real - I shoot them - shoot them now in face - God should never give them life  - OH - I don’t want to feel this way any more - so long

DR2: want free

ALTER: we have to live with torment - they  went on with their ives - they not tormented like we are - so mean

DR2: (quote yoke passage)

ALTER: I need rest - tired

DR2; will you come to Jesus?

ALTER: will He take pain away

DR2: yes

ALTER: how do I know

DR2; Bible - stripes healed

ALTER: He treated bad - but He forgave - how could he do that

DR2: love - perfect love - fear has torment - not perfect in love - you can have in Jesus - will you come to Jesus?

ALTER: the rest - need peace

DR2; He will give it - may I have your name?

ALTER: JOAN

DR2; pray with me please - OK?

JOAN: all right

Prayer: Dear Jesus - I come to you for rest and peace -- I accept you and your love and sacrifice - forgive me where I’ve been wrong - save me from sin and self - help me to forgive (#3 & 4) for what they did - and put it behind me - give me the peace and rest I need - I renounce evil, the devil and his spirits and command them in the name of Jesus...

JOAN: they pull me away

DR2; pray - rebuke demons in name and blood of Jesus

JOAN; light flickering - see it

DR2; what light - come back to Jesus the real light - in name of Jesus I rebuke all evil spirits and claim the freedom in Christ my Savior - in His name and blood, Amen.

DR2; peaceful?

JOAN: I have to be strong - I want to integrate but can’t

DR2; why

JOAN; have to stay and work - make things better

DR2; OK - need to

JOAN: need to help JIM - get up - discouraged - he won’t talk - so many evil ones to fight - they all around - so many of them - keep getting in way of light - cause light to flicker

DR2: pray for JOAN & JIM - evil presence - etc. (expel all spirits - by light and truth)

DR2: JOAN?

JOAN: still tired - have to go to work - so tired - weak

DR2: pray for strength - put on armor - etc.

Client back

9:30 AM

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FRI - 7/4 - 8:40 PM - during study Client went spacy - DR2 called for Client several times - client  snapped - said she saw two people - heard SCREAMING - but came back when I called - a few moments later she went out again - DR2 got up to shut blinds and move chair - client SCREAMED loudly and fell down out of chair and went across room to end of couch - cried - says everything blank - black

9:00PM

Client still felt a “presence” - prayed for power of Jesus and Holy Spirit - blood and resurrection - at point of rebuking the “presence” client could not pray and her eyes were evil as they looked at me (DR2) - I rebuked and the presence left - client prayed to give ground to God and for Jesus to forgive, cleans in His blood and for Holy Spirit to fill and no evi to come near.

9:20PM

DR2; call for JIM or JOAN - hello - wake up - anyone there?

Client: no one - can demons influence - keep from talking?  - I sense comeone hiding - afraid

DR2: (to system - JIM, JOAN, OTHERS) - exhorted to claim Jesus blood and Holy Spirit’s armour for warfare, etc - anyone there to speak? JIM?  free in Jesus to speak truth in love

ALTER: I don’t have anything to say - it’s very bad - wish not this way

DR2: what way

ALTER: everything like it is - messed up

 want to be happy - can’t too much darkness - wrong

DR2: want light - hope

ALTER: what hope is there - so much bad - don’t see hope

DR2: hope in Jesus

ALTER: Jesus always been

DR2: He wants you free and at peace

ALER: would be nice - such bondage

DR2: He can free if you will

ALTER: will what

DR2: let Him

ALTER: He never freed before

DR2: been waiting I guess

ALTER: for what

DR2: you and me - want some light?

ALTER: there is light - not all dark - but evil

DR2: we can renounce it - will you

ALTER: I have on a pretty dress

DR2: tell me about it

ALTER: long - sash - flowers everywhere - I’m pretty --- I can run - sky blue - trees = run and run - back in the hole - stay in hole

DR2: where the hole

ALTER: hole that we live in - the mind

DR2: OH - OK

ALTER: (client’s) body - free by - transporting myself - fly out - go where I want to go - get sucked back in

DR2; your name

ALTER: very pretty name

DR2: well

ALTER: you want to know it

DR2: yes

ALTER: why

DR2: collecting all names

ALTER: why

DR2: keep track of who I talk to

ALTER: so many to keep track of

its MARIE

DR2: OK - age

MARIE: 17  - NICE AGE - did you like

DR2: I guess so

MARIE: (client) thought 17 would be nice - not much of her life nice - she survived

DR2: why she SCREAM? you know

MARIE: (client back ) 

9:43 PM

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Counseling sessions with DR1, DR2, and a new counselor DR3. on 18 September 1997, 1000AM

 

DR1:  Childhood trauma split the soul - human spirit into personas.  Alters have names, persona have the name of the real individual.  The personas carry the memory and the pain.  This is the KEY: go after the personas to heal the original split.  Let Jesus speak His truth to the lie with no negative emotions.  The lies rise up through life as an aroma cloning themselves from one memory to the next into current life situations.  God’s word will heal completely.

                Don’t know how the system works with the personas, but when the spirit is healed the alters are automatically healed.  Alters take over the body, personas do not.  Personas take over the memory and revisits the memory including the pain.  The memory returns with the healing of the persona.

 

Client: (stand up ) feel sick (may be angry alter) I can’t trust - you tell me all this stuff - go on and on

DR1:  told what I knew - know more - let us talk to the persona and bring healing

Client:  been saying since Dec - feel anger in gut - same feeling - don’t know where - something won’t let - need total surrender - won’t let.

DR1 & DR3: (pray vocally rebuking spirits-hedging, - binding)

Client: I’m scared

DR3: what scared of

Client: Don’t know

DR3: Focus on being scared - what afraid of - let Jesus show you

DR1: go back - what afraid of - what think about

Client: anger - confusion hate

DR3: focus on confusion

Client: Don’t like - irritated

DR1: something inside - not (client)

DR3; No power - bound

Client: inside - wants to kill (DR3)

DR1: spirit in there

DR3; can’t kill me - Jesus bind

Client: why bother me

DR1: something inside - keep us informed of your thoughts - come to healing inside - upset about - can’t hurt you - what are your thoughts?

Client: you keep asking

DR1: Yes - you let - bring healing - can you see Jesus - are you (client)? - speak to me who talk to - know very angry - what   (pray aloud) call for (client) to talk - want to talk to you

(10:40 AM)

DR1: can you listen - mind drift on pain - I ask Jesus to heal - what memory brings pain - keep informed what brings pain - talk?

Client: me when little

DR1: what see

Client: blurry - in car - back seat

DR1: what feel

Client: on bed - (persons #1 & #4) beat me

DR1: feel pain - look for Jesus

Client: I see Him

DR1: listen to Him - He will speak (pray for Jesus to speak to Client).  What He say to you. Is He closer - in room - focus on Him - He comes to you - tell me when He talks -

Client: think - what for you to say - don’t know what real

DR1: focus on scene - I be quiet

(time lapse)

Client: Just stopped

DR1: (pray) speak to Client - healing - still see? Jesus and them - girl - wait for Jesus to speak to girl

(time lapse)

Client: how know really happening - beating stop - He tell all right - hold me

DR1: let Him hold girl - let Him make real

Client: Jesus here - take over - heal - why I feel so confused?

DR1: what happen to child?

Client: still there

DR3: focus on confusion - let Him speak to confusion - child not know what happen.

(time lapse)

Client: Hear voices - not get anywhere

DR3: (pray - command to silence - enemy bound)

DR1: not listen to devil - to Christ - still holding girl?

Client: yes

DR1: He say be OK - listen - He talk to her

Client: no - say it be all right - mind keeps wondering

DR1: go back to Lord - eyes on Him

Client: so what mean - He there - say all right - so what

DR1: She sleeping in His arms? He reunite in spirit

Client: thought tiny bit of peace - I feel?

DR1: Yes - Jesus come to heal broken hearted

Client: what’s the lie

DR1: that it not be OK - He say - it will be OK - girl still there or gone?

Client; gone

DR1: that’s the peace - keep thinking - go to next thought - Lord leads to pain

Client: my memories - painful - but small things - that was worst

DR1: OK - let Him take you back - let thoughts drift - where stop - (pray) - go to the pain - Jesus to heal - where are we?

Client: going in circles

DR1: (pray - stop thought on pain - no confusion - where You want)

Client: in hospital after tonsils out

DR1: pain

Client: age 5 - bleed - SCREAM for mom - not let her in - nose operation - DR yell at

DR1: Jesus there

Client: there or I put Him there?

DR1: you can’t - He will be - tell when you see

Client: I see Him

DR1: just listen to Him - He speak - what does He say?

Client: don’t have to feel any pain

DR1: He hold you

Client: yes

DR1: how feel  - better?

Client: yes

(11:05 AM)(frequent moments of silence for  the Lord to speak

Client: He said I love you - I see FERROUS WHEEL

DR1; focus on

Client: don’t know

DR1: focus - see what happen ( pray to see ferrous wheel)

Client: on it - SCREAMING

DR1; feel fear - see Jesus - tell when see

Client: I thought voices went away - why they back?

DR1: (pray over spirit voices - silence - focus on Jesus

Client: (upset - crying - SCREAMED  in fear - stood up - sat back down - hand on face)

DR1: where Jesus? - look for

DR3: see Jesus - let speak

DR1: Jesus speak to - listen

Client: (back up to desk)

DR1: what He say to you

Client: said it be all right

DR1: how feel - besides upset - peace?

Client: yes - not feel as before

DR1: what see

Client: nothing more

DR1: feel peace

Client: little

DR1: how feel about DR3

Client: better - what happen - why not have memory

DR1: don’t know

DR3: memory block - feel hopeless - terror - fear

DR2: lot of darkness - ask Jesus for light

Client: show memory

DR3: take away - may show - may not - take pain away - still feel fear - terror - hopeless - powerless?

Client: no

DR2 & DR3 (pray - client looking  angry - evil eyed)

Client: still on FERROUS WHEEL - going around the more you ask I get more agitated and feel things (take drink)

DR3: abandoned by someone?

Client: hard to believe - talk about parents - 5oth anniversary in SC - sister - conversations - phone - she before me Sunday  situation (details)

DR1: doing well - situational

11:30 AM)

DR1: how doing now

Client: all right - throat hurt

DR1: keep asking for healing and peace

Client: why let this happen

DR1: wants healing - shed light - Luke 1:78-79 - gave light - Client in darkness - to way of peace - why bring forward

Client: any other MPD - have baby alter - half bodies?

DR1: yes -

DR2: (show DR1 the cave - alters - babies - kill someone - bury - baby buried)

Client: so much variable - no sense

DR1: find keys - as personas reunite - memory - key broken spirit - Prov:17:22: A merry heart doeth good like a medicine: but a broken spirit drieth the bones.   Prov:18:14: The spirit of a man will sustain his infirmity; but a wounded spirit who can bear? - OK to go to other memory?

Client: such trivial

DR1: some overwhelming - send shock waves - screaming - terror - panic - from memory

Client: how many MPD co-conscious?

DR1; most

Client: how many not talk - thought patterns

DR1: sometimes don’t know

DR3: persona has memory - thought pattern

Client: right - feel they don’t know

DR1: right

DR3: pain - you - assaulted by someone

client: any kind - just sexual

DR1: any

Client: felt - don’t know

DR1: you will have memory (example) MPD - adult - personas - 30 each memory trauma - spirit back memory - like always had - but didn’t with no pain - God healed - done work - dynamic - grew up SRA

DR2: (show DR1 Kaleidoscope of color)

DR1: memory integrated with alter is habitual persona - details - God will give insight to mystery

Client: why take so long

DR1: if ask - He say right on target

client: OK

(11:50 AM)

DR1: need take hour for meeting - can work with DR3 or break - he understands - been there

Client; yes - feel comfortable

(11:55 AM)

(12:05 PM)

DR3: (talk)

Client: (out) panic - fear

DR2 & DR3: (pray

DR2: do we have (client)

DR3: (pray - client back) OK?

Client: NO (to bath room)

(12:10 PM)

DR3: (pray)

Client; can’t explain - but ask DR2 not to pray out loud any more

DR3: what in mind right now - looking for abandonment - fear - terror - hopelessness - powerlessness - I can’t - don’t know the way - tainted - pain from lies - eight lies - feel betrayed - looking for

Client: lived lies - live in hopelessness

DR3; from youth

Client: always felt worthless

DR3: worthless - another - totally helpless

Client: always felt - fear - why lie

DR3: Jesus all power - dispels fear (example) Gen. 1 -creation - time - for us - God visit any time He not bound to time - you - assaulted - Lord knew - only God heal broken spirit

Client: felt that all life

DR3: let Jesus heal

Client: confused - alters - see hear - not be - then make sense one memory - neighbor - went back - mother got on for

(12:18 PM)

Client: so many - one for each thing

DR3: once start - can be easy after that - in hospital - something

client: (person #1) complicated

DR3: tell me  - he honest? - dishonest? - key point - side with Christ - one evil? - not right

Client: church people see one - we see other - one hospital said I was emeshed with him

DR3: Satanist give two time lines - torture then win to Christ - other line in Satan to taint Christian life - Satan side as good - Jesus and church evil - no power - see failure in others - see in (person #1)

Client: has hold on me - not understand - after marriage - about age 30 - visit - he said - loving me and (person #4) - he love me more than any one in the world - in front of (person #4)

DR3: did this stir feelings

Client: sad - hurts - all kinds - I broke down in bathroom - sobbed - (person #4) came in - ask what wrong - said hurts to be loved so much

DR3: triggered something inside - can I ask Christ what?

Client: What in me skeptical?

DR3: (pray) - memory - visit- reveal - bind enemy - no power - defeated - power in cross - anything happen? - hopelessness?

Client: how feel?

DR3: feel now - hopeless?

Client: strange - first come to DR1 - total hopeless - last time DR1 said to do 2 hr/day - not feel as strong as before - hopeless

DR3: God healed memory today - ask Lord - He may not want more today - let Him

client: strange - before - restroom - not feel now as felt then

DR3: feel better - may be He heal

client: address thot - hopeless - don’t feel any hopeless - not any

DR3: on zero to ten where - ten being no hope?

Client: strange - but 4 - most any other time 10

DR3: want it to zero? ask Lord - reveal where hopelessness  - can trust Lord (pray) - take to hopelessness now

(pause - 12:30 PM)

DR3: God show anything

Client: no

DR3: feel peace

Client: like not felt in years

DR3: may not want to go any further - place of peace - stop

Client: hart to understand - before restroom

DR3: what feel then

Client: fear - panic

DR3: fear now?

Client: some what

DR3: focus on fear - safe place - Jesus in control - let mind drift back

Client: what feel - not much of any thing

DR3: see Lord Jesus Christ

Client: didn’t

DR3: now

Client: yes

DR3: ask to go with you - “Dear Lord - go with me to visit the fear - confess fear - sin -” - what Jesus say - see Jesus

Client: (eyes shut)

(pause)